Timeline of Insantiy

This is how is started:

1985-Jazzercise with my Aunt

1987-Watched Dirty Dancing, remembering my Aunt saying she will not eat the rest of the week so she can look like Jennifer Grey

1989-Wake up at 5a before school to work out with Gilad and watch BodyShaping while getting ready

1990-Started the fat free craze

1991-Got involved in Color Guard and started losing weight...people noticed.

1992-Still eating fat free and not losing

1993-Starved to get lean for Prom...weight 109 GOAL!

1994-Worked at Fast Food restaurant and would eat baked potatoes because they did not have fat

1995-Started College...need I say more

1997-Partying Wed, Thurs, Fri, and Sat. Alcohol, alcohol, alcohol....I got up to around 135 during this time and was CHUBBY!

1999-Preparing for marriage. Living off of Hamburger Helper and fish sticks but running 3 miles 4x's a week. Got to 115! I felt great at my wedding :)

2002-Starting binging purging. Nothing else would work but this definitely did. WOULD NOT recommend it. Who knows what kind of damage I did to my system.

2005-Still working out. Thought I was eating right now. Bowl of cereal in the morning w/ banana, yogurts and granola bars, and a sensible dinner.

2007-Dreambodies. Wow, I learned SO much this year. If I would have only known how to eat in 1987.

2009-Still staying leaner and healthy even though what I see in the mirror is still the chubby girl who has always struggled.

Throughtout these years there is one thing that I have done consistently and that is work out. I LOVE to be in motion! My workouts have more meaning now though. I understand so much more about my body.

I'm starting to believe in the "chemical consumption" ruining the health and storing fat. My mom will be my test subject until i'm mentally prepared to venture on my own.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMA!

Today is my mom's 56th b-day. I made her a sugar free pudding pie :) I'm helping her get healthy. We do aerobics together on Tuesdays, Thursday and one day on the weekend and have SO much fun!

So i've never done this but i'm thinking about putting some of that non permanent coloring in my hair?? I can't remember the color but i'm feeling spunky? Yay or
nay?



I went to my grandparents house yesterday to help my grandpa send how his pacemaker is working over the phone! Technology people! This way he doesn't have to go to the hospital and have it checked. It makes me feel good to help old people. I also love to hear their stories even though I hear my grandma's EXACT same one 5 mins apart :( The weird thing is she had made green beans and potatoes and told me that these are the potatoes you brought me last week. Some things she remembers and others she doesn't. Like she'll tell me something and 5 mins later she tells me the same thing. Of course my mom does this too and then I just say Alzheimer's mom? LOL! It's really NOT funny in our family though EEK!

This morning I jumped out of bed and had a GREAT 60 mins cardio session! In just a bit I have a chest crit. LOVE doing chest!!!


When you add a new pretty blog background don't forget to delete your old one!!...just sayin ;)

Fun With the Fam!

So we couldn't let the beautiful weather go to waste! We took Boomer to the Canal downtown Indy and it was gorgeous! I had already walked her this morning for 50 mins so we just did a leisure walk and she was spent LOL! My girl is getting old. It's so nice to be more relaxed about not having a set schedule. Boomer walk up to a shade tree and Mike and I noticed she needed to rest. We just laid under the tree and relaxed for 20 mins. I'm usually all high strung and have to keep moving but let me tell you it felt GREAT to just chill! I can tell Mike was happy too. I didn't ONCE mention how okay we need to get home so I can workout.

Then we walked by a coffee shop. I got myself a cafe americano, Mike an iced tea, and Boomer a water which she lapped up like she had just walked through the desert. The best part was it was only $3.65 and tasted WAY better than Starbucks(sorry Kelly O). The lady even asked if Boomer wanted ice or not LOL! I told her no ice ;)


Our old apartment...man it's been FOREVER since we lived there it seems.

I don't know what was wrong with me last week but I was beat down. I wouldn't wake up until 7:30a and then I just didn't feel like doing ANYTHING. My stomach had been upset all week and it was all I could do to get on the treadmill and do my weights. I am one who LOVES to workout so I was really discouraged. This morning I woke up at 6a and fixed Mike's lunch and got on the treadmill and had a GREAT workout! I guess I had just hit a wall but i'm feeling better now :) My weight is still at 120 but I can't give up. What good would that do?

Time of Firsts

So yesterday I thought I would go and get a library card. I haven't had one since elementary school. If I want a book I just buy it. Now since i'm unemployed I need all the freebies I can get! This morning i'm going there because they are having a volunteer fair. Next week i'm already volunteering for the Easter Seals. I just NEED to do something and feel useful again :) It's nice being able to workout whenever but I thrive for structure. Volunteering will be a good networking tool also so i'll keep that in mind.

I also went and got some tomatoes from the Farmer's Market yesterday. I was going to go to Kroger but thought I bet there produce is WAY better...I was right.

My weight is still around 120. Gaining and losing that same ounce. It's really getting frustrating but since i've got a lot of time to focus i'm seeing how stupid that is. I'm just not gonna worry about it. If it happens it happens. I'm eating my meal plan and doing the workouts and extra cardio so if my body isn't cooperating it's not the end of the world. Some people compete because they LOVE the competition. I compete to keep myself in shape and to hang out with my friends. This show I don't think any of my friends are doing anymore so what's the point? I'm not giving up though...I still have that goal of 115 that I want to happen NOW LOL! Trust me, I was watching my husband eat 2 cheeseburgers last night drooling. Pizza the night before and Haagen Daaz. I'm sure he lost 5 lbs from it.

Speaking of him...he's doing a mini marathon next weekend! His goal is under 1:30:00. I'll keep you posted!

Mmmm...Java

Still around....

I'm still plugging away. I'm about over the bad turkey I ate thank goodness! Weight loss has stopped and it's frustrating but I just keep thinking about the warm weather and short shorts I want to wear this summer.

Dear Body,

I know it's part of nature for a woman to have fat on her hips and lower stomach. I know this is for reproductive purposes but remember what i've told you all along? If you didn't have kids by the time you were 30 then you wouldn't have them. Well you'll be 34 this year so there is no need to hold on to the hip and stomach fat okay? There will not be any little gingerkids running around. I appreciate you trying to protect me but i'll be okay without that. Thanks for listening and I have a little over 5 weeks so HURRY UP and burn it off! I don't even care about the butt fat because Mike likes it. If you want to dispense it to my bony shoulders so maybe I could grow some muscle there that would be just fine. Or my toes, I don't care if they are big. Thanks again.

Sincerely,

aj

p.s. Sorry for the bad turkey I fed you last night

Ageing and Bargain Shopping

Mike and I went to buy new running shoes yesterday. I really didn't plan on it since I don't have income coming in yet but what a deal we got! He bought Adidas and I bought New Balance. Both of them were $74.99, buy one get one 50% off and I had a 20% off coupon. So it ended up being around $60! He bought them so it didn't cost me a thing and my feet felt so much better on the treadmill this morning :)

I plan to grow old gracefully. I do things to try and prevent it like moisturize etc...and I have since my early 20's. I also use to be a tanning bed junkie and I know that didn't help the cause any. What got me thinking about this is I saw a movie last night and Helen Hunt is looking really old. Then I thought...well she is getting old. That is how you are suppose to age. No one in Hollywood looks like my grandma and that's not reality. I will do everything to keep my body healthy and protect my youthfulness but I will not go to extremes. That also reminds me that I got carded on the cruise ship! I was so happy :) I didn't even get any alcohol but they said you can't be in the club unless you're 21! HA!

Really, how would you like to be remembered? Growing old gracefully or doing anything you can and then turning yourself into a mess?

6 weeks out...maybe....

Hey Everyone! I've had a great week of weight loss! I lost 7.2 lbs in 5 days. This morning I weighed 119.2. I've looked back at the last shows and my weight at 6 weeks out has been.

115.0 - 2007 1st show
123.4 - 2008(attempt at 2nd)
117.2 - 2008 2nd show
114.4 - 2008 3rd show

So i'm gonna keep plugging away and see what happens. I said if I was 120.0 at 6 weeks out i'll give it a go so i'm going :) I'll send in my application for the show on 5/19/09. I'll know for sure if i'll be ready by then or not. I'm really not gung ho about this show to be honest with you. I mean I was on a freaking cruise at 8 weeks out for pete's sake. I'll do my best though...i'm not a quitter!

I feel great right now! My body is looking better and I don't have "carb face" LOL! Love that term ;) My ultimate goal is to be 115 and enjoy life. That doesn't mean I eat pizza etc...but that I can relax and eat a salad from a restaurant without feeling guilty. Yes, I told you all I have mental problems HA! I had it all figured out after my 2nd show last year. I was eating some treats on the weekends and still maintaining at 113. Then I did my show, gained to much after that, Thanksgiving came, Christmas, cold weather, you all get the point. Parts of me wonders what I can do with my physique if I do get to 115 and don't do the dry out and gain TONS of bloatedness after a show hmmmmm....that'll be my next journey.

Book Review and Loss

I'm down 6 lbs since coming back from the cruise!!! WOO!

I am not a regular reader and I usually get bored half way through and lose interest. So at the airport I picked up "Where Are You Now?" by Mary Higgins Clark. I read it in 1 day! Now i'm reading "Hold Tight" by Harlan Coben and I can't put it down! I'm excited to see how it ends.

I sent in my application for IUPUI and it's a waiting game now. The prerequisites that I need to take are very common classes and since i'm behind on enrolling I'll find out in 6-8 weeks if I can take them. If not I will have to wait until next Spring to get started on my certificate...that would suck. I know by that time I will have another unsatisfying job because i'm impatient.

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