I QUIT......

....all my supplements on the 1st that is. It's in preparation for my surgery on the 15th. Any nurses out there know why this is? I'm thinking it has something to do with blood clotting etc??

I'm doing great on my diet right now. I feel so much better. Although i've gained A LOT of fat. I'm not sure what the scale weight is and I don't care. All I know is i'm holding water like CRAZY. Okay maybe that's a cop out, i've eaten WAY too much fudge this Christmas. Last year I couldn't understand why I gained so much weight. I stuck to my bulking diet and was on some different supps so I figure that could be why. Now I KNOW it's the sweets I ate. Food wise I did great but chocolate and sugar wise...not so much :)

So it's on! The Arnold will be here before I know it! I don't want to look like a chipmunk face again in my pictures :)

I'm getting my new supplement that Tony prescribed tomorrow and I can't even take it yet...ugh...i'm excited about this one too! I can't say what it is but maybe if it works really well I may give a hint or 2??

WOO! CHECKOUT MY PHOTOS---------> ADDED MORE PICS

I got our pictures today! They're awesome! Here's a taste...and why did I eat all those sweets! Ugh, i'm cleaning it up BIG time after seeing these pics!

Oh goodness...those jeans are tight now LOL!

Baking and the Holidays!

Okay so I won't be baking that early EVER again :) I'm not as strong as I can be when I know there isn't a "contest" around the corner. However I did bake brownies yesterday without licking a thing just to prove to myself that i'm in control.

I'm at the weight mark that I DO NOT want to go over so I need to watch out. This happened last year. So after all the festivities I really to to work hard so I can look good for the Arnold. I'm keeping track of my weight which helps ME to make better choices. I'm not going to look like I did last year. I don't know how that happened? This time I KNOW it's because of fudge and cookies :) I haven't been eating bad food just those little sweets add up. I ate alot of sweets right after the show too ugh...it's disgusting.

Tonight I go to my mom's for Christmas Eve. My sister, brother in law, and dad all go to my mom's and it's the best time! Then tomorrow I got to Mike's parents. Eating there will be fine because 1. There isn't TONS of food like my family makes 2. My family means comfort and pigging out but with his I'm okay. He has a great family though and I can't wait to see them. I have 5 nieces and a nephew that I never see. That brings me to Saturday, Grandma's. The best homecooking EVER and comforting foods. Foods that remind me of childhood and that makes me HAPPY! I'm going to TRY and behave. I guess i'll just step on the scale before I go and that should do the trick HA!

Loving the Holidays!

My kitchen is all stocked up for baking this week WOO! I love this time of year and lately i've really been in the Christmas spirit. I've been letting cars out in front of me, buying things that people NEED instead of buying unneccesary stuff for myself, and I went shopping with my mom, at night.

I had a card from VS from buying something from there last month. All I needed to do was buy something from Dec 1~Dec 24 to redeem. It would be worth $10, 50, 100 or $500. I told Jodi I wish is was worth $500 so I could buy my sister a bunch of bras to support her DD's. So I went in to buy some shower gel and I had a $50 winner! I thought for sure it would only be $10 or else I wouldn't have gotten the gel HA! So I bought my sister a bra. I call it 2 tarps and a bungee cord...she loves that. She will be so happy at Christmas!

I ran a 2 miler in 18:42 this afternoon! I NEVER just run. I've never really tried to see what I can do it in but I was happy with myself. Now my goal is going to be to do it in under 17! Of course Mike does a 5K in 19 mins LOL!

I think i'm starting to talk myself out of this surgery i'm suppose to have Jan 15th. Has anyone else had surgery on there "female" parts that can reassure me.

Feeling it!

I'm down .8 lbs today since Saturday WOO! Of course then today I ate a few truffles and some nuts :) LOL! I'm just trying to see what I can get away with but that's about to stop darnit! I need to lose a little more fluff so I can eat next week. I'm gonna eat no matter what but i'd feel better if the scale was a tad lower. Don't go by the scale..I know, I know. I HAVE to get a bit below 115 though to keep TOM away ;)

I talked with Tony yesterday and he made me feel much better. I am ready to get serious again and he pretty much talked me out of a really strict diet right now...Love him! Next week we're gonna do a bit of macro shifting to prepare for Christmas YIPPEE! My workouts have been awesome lately and i'm sure it's because i'm eating more and not doing a lot of cardio. I miss the cardio though so i'm gonna at least get a walk in before work in the mornings.

Urologist's visit didn't go that well. Nothing too serious but I need to have surgery in the nether regions UGH....I'm not sure when yet but you better believe the first thing I asked was about exercise. No restrictions there...just no sex for 2 weeks YIPPE...I mean darn :(

Report Card

I was RAVENOUS Friday night and yesterday. I could not get full for anything! Normally when I eat I don't get full but then again i'm not hungry afterwards. Friday night I was gonna eat a turkey burger and green beans but had to have something else so I made some yam fries...a bunch of them :) Saturday I woke up STARVING! I ate my oats and eggs...still hungry. I went and watched Mike run a 5K in 20 degree weather and that kept my mind off of it. Then throughout the day I just could not satisfy my hunger. I ate rice, MRP to make myself think I was having a shake and maybe that would do it, then I even ate a bowl of cereal with water because milk has sugars and carbs. That's how my stupid mind thinks.

Last night was our company Christmas Party. I wasn't gonna go but at the last minute I decided what the heck. All week I would grade my eating somedays as an A- and then others as a B-. I've been actually doing good and feeling better about my body. I was losing weight, ounces not pounds but at least that's something. My abs are visible again and i'm seeing my little shoulders cuts. My thighs are bigger now and the love handles are slowly showing. I need to put a STOP to that. I'm not worried about the legs because they aren't really "big" and I don't need them to look like toothpicks until comp day. Good thing because that is the ONLY time they are thin HA! Now my pooch is another story. It has a mind of it's own. It's really funny looking right now and feels all watery YIKES!

So anyway at the Christmas party I give myself a C on the food I ate only because the chicken was smothered in some sort of sauce, I had a piece of bread, and green bean almondine which had to have something bad on it because it was SO good. I'm use to eating green beans straight from the can(don't hurl Angela). Then comes dessert...need I type anymore? FAILED!!! Oh boy it was YUMMY though! There was some sort of flourless chocolate cake and it was all fudgy and cakey at the same time mmmmm.....It was a nice meal but now i'm back to eating good the rest of the week. Remember my mentality about the milk...doesn't apply to chocolate. I knew I shouldn't have gone. BUT, it tis the season to enjoy your friends and family and i'm not going to dwell on it.

So today I woke up and i'm feeling good. I didn't eat breakfast first thing because I wasn't hungry. I went to Target instead. I need to do my bi/tri workout and may throw some extra cardio in there. I'm taking the fur girl to Petsmart today.

Tomorrow I have to go to a urologist...ugh....i'm scared.


****you may think oh she ate rice, cereal and an MRP and she thinks that's bad. Truth is Mike had polished off the Tostios or I would have eaten those. I do not keep things in my house or I WOULD eat that comfort stuff. Thought about buying some Wheat Thins at Target but even though they are in Mike's goody cabinet I would end up eating them LOL!****

Reminding Myself

Yesterday I felt like crap and this morning i'm feeling great! I even sent Tony a text and told him my pants were getting tight. He replies...No more cheats! Oh yeah, maybe that is why LOL!

This is the point in time when i've added back cottage cheese, Metrx and fruit, and i'm gaining so I believe it's because of that. Nevermind the Wheat Thins or the 6 chocolate covered pretzels I've had! So I am responsible for what I put in my mouth. That doesn't mean I won't relax and enjoy the holidays. I'm doing okay on my eating I think. I would be perfect if there wasn't that thing called chocolate that's EVERYWHERE right now. Funny how I can pass on it during prep time but not right now???

My weight is fluctuating between 116~118 right now. As long as I don't go over 120 during this season i'll be alright :) I REALLY want to be 114. 4 stinking lbs...is that too much to ask for? That's a mini goal for myself...114 by 12/24 because that is appetizer night at mom's and I know i'll gain then LOL!

Freeform

I was on here reading blogs and thought I would post one myself. I have no clue what i'll type about :)

I went to Target this morning and bought some cottage cheese, strawberries, and grapefruits YUM! I don't know what to do with my time right now. Tony actually told me I don't have to do as much cardio as i've been doing. So now i'm trying to stay off the treadmill. My workouts have been GREAT this past week. Except for Wednesday and that was my fault. I ate a TON of nuts and then my stomach hurt. My weight is around 116 right now which is up 9 lbs from comp day. I'm feeling good though. That first week and the initial shock of your body not looking all dehydrated is the toughest. Once you realize you are human and that look is NOT healthy you tend to not be as mental. So i'm enjoying my body right now although I need to get back to 90% clean ASAP. I would say i've been around 75% right now. My downfalls are nuts and creamers EEK!

I was reading an article from a friend of mine that she was showcased on. She said that she typically takes an "off season", although she doesn't like to call it that either because she's healthy all year round, through Oct~Dec. She likes to bake with her son and enjoy the holidays. He will remember baking with mommy and having a good time and not that mommy didn't have a 6 pack :) I loved that!

Back At It!

Okay, last week was my "off season" and i'm glad it's done. I did do all my workouts but eating was junky. I felt like crap. I was depressed looking like a puffalump in the mirror. This is day 3 of clean eating and i'm seeing my abs again! My legs look like this now:

Okay, maybe not ;)

So after a few more weeks of eating good i'll feel much better. I am doing my early morning cardio although it's just a half an hour. THIS IS WHAT I CHOSE TO DO. NO ONE IS PRESCRIBING THIS FOR ME. SO DON'T GO CUTTING AND PASTING AND SENDING TO A TRAINER AND MAKING HIM LOOK BAD FOR IT. I love waking up and getting a good sweat in. It's not as intense though but it still feels good.