Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Weekend Recap

I had an awesome Valentine's Day! We saw the movie Taken and it was AWESOME, then we went and ate at Bonefish Grill. I had the ahi tuna and broccoli like a good girl :) They gave us a bar of Lindt Chocolate but Mike snatched it up LOL! Then Sunday came. Boy was I moody. I did go and visit my family though which was a plus but I was just feeling fat. No one understands me when I get this way. I know a lot of you on here will know the EXACT feeling. Here I am 120 lbs and feeling like a whale? I seriously have mental issues with weight. Always have and i'm afraid I always will. Before I went to visit my mom she asked me to get her some carrots. When I put them on her counter I saw a "7 day soup diet" which is what she needed the carrots for. It was then that I realized I must have watched my mom and aunt diet when I was younger and it's embedded into my brain.

Once I hired Tony I thought all of that was changing. I mean I was eating right and becoming a happier person. Now though I know what I CAN look like even if it's not realistic. I do want to be 115 lbs...that's where I need to be ALL the time. No more people telling 120 is a healhty weight for me...I feel fat and don't like it.

I know it's not an everyday look but dang...why can't I remember being this thin?


Becca said...

Aw, short waisted sweetie, what a cute pic. You know, I get tired of ppl telling me what weight was 'healthy' for me too. I know when I look and feel best, and it's usually a few pounds less than other people think. Haters! LOL

Stef said...


C2 said...

I think anyone who has prepped or competed in a fitness competition feels the same way. :)

Love you Girl!


Jessica said...

Hey girl,

You are LOOKING GOOD! As for feeling obsessed with the weight, I am pretty sure this is what we signed up for when we signed on to figure competitions! :)

Keep it goin! Can't wait to see next pics!