Are YOU Serious?

Do you still order the latest and greatest workout gadget? Are you past that yet? I know I am...thank goodness. I still see some things and think hmmmm...then I slap myself in the face and get real. It is NOT easy losing and keeping weight off. It's not suppose to be. If YOU want it then YOU will succeed.

Now i'm seeing these sort of websites all over the internet and blogs HEALTHY DONUTS Are you kidding me? This is just another wave of the "fat free" craze that got America fat in the first place. Oh my they only have 3g of fat! WOW! Just ignore the fact there are 31g of carbs and 14g of sugar people!! That won't go to your butt or thighs because they are fat free!! AAAGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!

Now if you are one of THOSE people who can eat this kind of crap and stay "healthy" i'm bowing to you and I hate your guts. I don't like donuts so maybe that's why i'm able to say this stuff :) If it was chocolate cake though give me the real thing!

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Stomach is STILL bloated like crazy. It's kind of cool though...I have a puffy six pack and my low pelvic muscles are popping out like a guys :) Okay maybe i'm sick and twisted. This is what i'm staring at right now:


No wheat or dairy, only 1 piece of gum at night after brushing my teeth.

GOOD LUCK TINA!!!!

What Am I Eating?

No this isn't a post of what I actually eat. Trust me you'd skip right over that. I see all these blogs with yummy food etc...and I drool! I'm pretty plain jane when it come to eating. Mustard is about all the flavor you'll find.

So why is my stomach so bloated and upset?? I start out in the mornings and i'm doing good but around noon it inflates like a balloon! Last week I was getting Mike a sugar free pudding cup and I DID lick the lid. I swear it's from that but he thinks i'm nuts. Seriously i've been sleeping on the couch for the past 2 nights, it's THAT bad.

Another thing it could be is Truvia? I've used it before though and haven't had problems with it. I only use 1 pack in my coffee but I guess i'll cut that out too and see if that helps. Ugh....I really thought I was gonna die last night.

I really think this could happen to me!

Plyo Oh My Oh!

Happy Friday everyone!! I think my husband is jealous of my unemployed status. He's starting to make snide remarks and when I told him TGIF I don't think he found it funny this morning LOL!

I got an email from IUPUI the school i'm trying to get into summer classes and they said they need a copy of my high school transcript. I'm already WAY behind on enrollment so i'm not sure if i'll get in or not. If not i'd have to wait until Spring to take the pre-requisites and then classes don't start until fall. Now that i'm thinking about it i'm not sure if I want to go back to school?? Dang, I change my mind so much I confuse myself.

My uncle knows a man hiring for an office manager at a church and it sounds like cake work but I doubt it pays very much. I'd rather get unemployment and have freedom for a bit :)

My mom and I do aerobics together on Tues, Thurs, and one day on the weekend. I have Comcast and there is exercise TV on there so we just pick one of those and go at it. I try to pick "easier" ones so she can keep up. I amaze myself and my husband at how well I do in step aerobics. To me it's like dancing, you watch and then do it. I LOVE it!! So anyway the one we did last night KILLED me! OUCHY! It was AWESOME! I normally don't do plyos and i've been trying to shock the fat out of my body and i'm sure that did it :) My mom only lasted 10 minutes but we were both dripping when we got done. I was soaked LOVE IT!!!!

I saw this on Pauline Nordin's blog and I LOVED IT! I have a lot of LOVE today LOL!
Do you want to like what you see every day in the mirror and have a positive outlook on yourself or do you want to keep on hiding and blaming your genetics?
This is so true. So many people think they are just destined to be fat. I have a small waist and wider hips. I cannot change that HOWEVER I can get the fat off of them. I have blue eyes, I can't change that(well I could). I have larger thighs when i'm NOT eating exactly to meal plan. Who's fault is that? When people see my show pics they tell me how little my legs are. I swear they are NOT little EVER...just during the water drop week. BUT..they are getting there. I'm molding them to be the way I want them to be. Altzheimer's and high cholesterol ARE genetic in my family and that is why i'm eating and working out the way I do!!!

LOVE THIS QUOTE BY TONY :)

"I'm Maintaining" is another way of saying I'm choosing to NOTHING. Greatness comes ONLY to those who continue to knock down the walls of Complacency. YOU will be the only one responsible for the legacy you leave behind. Tear it up and leave one for all to remember...Get out my way!

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After I saw this I quit having a pity party for myself. I am NOT happy at 120. I am better than that. I will fight my body for all it's worth to get where I want to be. I'm still eating my strawberries though ;)

So you can't lose weight? Well you aren't pushing yourself then. You're happy where you're at? BS! You're just lazy and don't want to put in the work. You don't know why you can't lose weight? I've been there too, hire a trainer they work miracles...IF you do the work.

I'm trying to get myself on the treadmill LOL! I think that did it!

Roses and Bumble Bees

Today I feel GREAT! Mood is up and i'm loving life! Maybe it was those strawberries I had Monday? I better get some more of those :) On Monday I weighed 120.4 lbs and this morning 116.8!! What did I do you ask? I'm not real sure. Just a few little things really:

Used Truvia instead of Splenda (3g of carbs per pkt but it's all natural)
Wanted to cry thinking about getting on the treadmill so i've been doing some step
Getting all 6 meals in
Haven't had asparagus in forever because it cost as much as a doctor's visit, so i've eaten them for the past 3 days. Not much just 7 spears with dinner
Cut cardio in half...except I actually add the step because it's fun

Of course Tony added something too ;)

So I hope this loss brings to 115 in the next few weeks! The best part is i'm not killing myself anymore and i'm not worried about "making weight". I'm not a wrestler and I know that looks count, weight doesn't. I know 116 doesn't sound like a lot of weight but I store it all in my hips ugh....so it looks fat.

Stats: 5/6
Height 5'3
Weight 116.8
Waist - 24.5
Hips - 35.5
Thighs - 21.5

Typically my waist to hip ratio is 10" apart...SOOO hopefully that means the fat will be coming off soon and my hips will measure 34.5!

What am I going to obsess over when I am able to lose this fat and lean out for life? NOTHING!!! LOL!

Giggity Goo

I have been an emotional mess lately! AAAHHHGGGGG!!!! I'm not sure what is wrong with me. One day i'm on top of the world the other in HELL. Yesterday I cried thinking about working out. All day long all I wanted to do was cry. I'm reading a book on androgen disease. There was a sentence that stuck out in my mind....Has your body forgotten it's female? YES! I haven't had a period in 8 months! It also talks how many women think they are healthy because their diet is good and they exercise but if you don't have a period that IS a VERY important sign that your health isn't good....sigh. Well here's my diagnosis.


It looks as if I won't be competing in May. Tony and I had a long conversation yesterday and I think i've made my decision. I'm not sure what's wrong with my body but it's NOT cooperating. I'm okay with that. I know i'm under stress with the job loss etc...and competing isn't my life. I just hate to throw out that OCB card and not get another use out of it LOL!

We're suppose to get better at each show too. I would NOT be leaner than I was in Novemeber. I have to keep that in mind. I think i'm just a later in the year competitor and there is nothing wrong with that :) Until I can get my weight under control I don't need to worry about comps. I'm not at all disappointed with my physique right now it's just less than 4 weeks is NOT going to cut it. Sure there are hoops I could jump through but I am NOT willing to screw my body up anymore than it already is. Tony has cut my cardio in half and we're going to make ME happy. This prep has become a burden and no fun and when that happens what's the point?

I'm sure tomorrow i'll be all rainbows and butterflies :)

Say Whaaaat?

I was in Target this morning and saw some bright red strawberries. They looked so good so I bought them! YUMMY! My husband is proud of me :) LOL!

Cookout Update* LOL!

I told you I was feeling strong! Not a single ounce of food went into my mouth. The best part is I wasn't sad about it. I did go past my 3 hour without food mark *gasp* who cares.

Mini Marathon Update*

What a GREAT morning for a mini marathon! HECK NO I didn't run in it but I go to support my hubs. I should say Boomer and I do :) We walked downtown for an hour and 20 minutes and I thought I should head to the finish line. I knew the Kenyans had already finished because the helicoptors were swarming over it. Mike had a goal to beat 1:30:00 and be in the top 500 finishers. Well to our surprise he finished UNDER that! I'm not sure of the exact time yet but it's between 1:27:00 and 1:28:00. I'm so proud of my man. His next race...the Indy Marathon and his ultimate goal is to qualify and run in the Boston Marathon!

So my husband really enjoys running. I really enjoy watching my body getting leaner. Not sure yet if 4 weeks is enough time to get stage ready but i'm not gonna stress over it. After losing my job i've been doing a lot of soul searching and thinking about things and if this happens it happens. I'm tired of scheduling my life around competing...there I said it. This doesn't mean i'm heading for the next ice cream shop or not killing my 3 workouts a day :) I'll continue this until i'm a lean mean machine in my mind.

I may take some progress pics tomorrow just for the H of it.

OMG! I drank coffee today without Splenda!! There's something that's making me hold some weight so i'm gonna see if that could be doing it. I'm really getting into this organic and all natural thing.

My husbands runner friends are having a cookout this afternoon. Typically I wouldn't go because of the stupid usual reasons...gotta do my workouts...don't want to be tempted. I feel strong today though. My workouts are in and I don't want to eat crap. Not to mention they eat pretty healthy except for all the alcohol which isn't a problem for me to resist.

I'm really changing for the better I think!

p.s. Stupid me forgot my camera this morning, thank goodness Mike's parents were there with theirs!

Where am I?

Seriously, do I live in Seattle? Cornfield behind my house, flat as can be,(the land not me although that is true too) McDonalds not Starbucks on the corner, nope still in Indiana. I'm SICK of the freaking rain!!!!!

My sister's house is ALMOST most finish. She is basically going to have a brand new house after the flood June 7th 2008...yes she's still homeless. Her and my BIL have been staying with my dad so she's okay though. Her house will be done just in time for another flood :) I really wanted to help her decorate etc...but with no job now that won't happen.

I was watching Oprah yesterday and it was the one where Kirstie Alley admits she's fat again. You know why? She moved all of her workout equipment to her garage and didn't use it for the last year and a half. Also the Jenny Craig people don't weigh her every week. I find that if I don't weigh myself every week it's really easy for the weight to creep up. When I first started with Tony I lost weight like a champ, it was a loss everytime I stepped on the scale. My body was molding itself into something it's never been before. Now I know i'm still molding but it's not been my friend lately. Up and down, i'm 118.6 as of yesterday. I didn't weight this morning because I didn't poop yesterday LOL! So back to Kirstie. She doesn't point blame on anyone but herself. She is responsible. Not her trainers or Jenny Craig.

My husband begged me not to color my hair :( If I do he probably wouldn't even notice! I'm getting it trimmed tonight so i'll ask the hairdresser more about it.

I'm really excited about helping out with the Easter Seals. I found out more about what i'll be doing and that is helping autistic children ages 6 mos~18 years. I have been doing some research but I have also asked MelissaH to answer any questions that I have as she is living with a child who has autism. She would be able to help more than any professionals out there. Thanks Melissa!!!