Life

I'll try to make this story short. My grandpa is in the hospital. We found out he had cancer a few months ago and he went through radiation etc..I was there Thursday night and it just wasn't my grandpa. They said his calcium level was high and that was causing confusion. Normally I would have been a mess because I had only got 3 workouts in and I HAD to get in my 4th. Screw that. I went 4.5 hours without eating...who cares. I would LOVE to say that I didn't even think about those things but the truth is I DID. I HATE thinking like that!

Today my husband had an eye appt at 8:30a. We decided that i'd go with him and then we'd go to the store together. Well to make another long story short(too late) he was in there for an hour and 15 minutes. What did I think about? How I didn't get up for EMC and now i'm just sitting in the car clipping coupons letting my oats lay on my hips. I mean how mental does that sound?? So I decided to walk around town in my flip flops, it was better than nothing. We go to the store where i'm a complete BITCH and I know i'm being that way but I can't stop. I think i'm PMSing but in reality i've been PMSIng for the last year without having a period!! Okay, i'm going to make a DR. appt this week and see what's up.

I came home and ate lunch and went back out to the hospital. My grandpa is doing much better today. He knows who we all are so that's good. My eating hasn't been that great during this time. I had some organic chocolates and a bite of my hubs dinner last night not to mention the salad I got at lunch had peanut dressing when I asked for balsamic vinegar on the side LOL! Today I had some cashews and a half of a granola bar. I wish I didn't care. Those things aren't THAT bad. It's not like I ate a large fry or a thick shake but that is how my brain works and i'm REALLY trying to get it fixed. I have been looking at other blogs where people are "healthy" and not "neurotic". I tend to be the latter i'll admit.